Wednesday, April 29, 2009

method yg ssuwai to stady ngan bek...(ak bru found dis out)

fes2 skali, ak post ney sbb ak nk share camne care nk stady, 2 pon ak cedok2 dri mmbe2 ak, tokok tmbah ngan care trsendiri (ak kn bakal engineer, so kne kreatif la, heheh). tp sumer trpulang kt korang mmbe2 camne nk applied ps2 wat care sendiri...

  • fes thing dat matter, is ur NIAT..eja bek2...ur niat will determine ur mission in ur stady...ur niat has to be rite and must always rite..dun u eva eva try to manipulate ur niat because once u haf manipulated it, ur determination will eventually be manipulated too....niat kerana ALLAH adelah yg terbaik..timbelah sbyk ilmu yg ade kt muke bumi ni slagi ko mseh idop dan mseh bernafas (paru2 mseh sehat)..jgn r korang nk blaja sbb nk lulus exam semate2...nt ilmu 2 cpt hilang (ak ckp berdasarkn pengalamn...FORTRAN ak da lupe..)
  • blaja ngan care sndiri....pick ur best tyme to stady....dun u eva try to imitate anybody in how their revised their studies...different people got differnt style, yet differnt hairstyle...
  • avoid misconception....(as i always did, im learnin to avoid it)...in any studies, concept is da most basic thing...for example, in mechanical, if u misunderstood da concept, ur lyfe would be like HELL!!
  • think out of da box, be creative sometimes, but need to stick to da fact...yet, fact is science rite?
  • dun push urself too much, haf a lil rest..(as i always did)...haf a walk sometimes, b4 da exams i guess..
  • ask if u r not clear wif da particular topics..

yeah, dats all from me....

when i feel like writing, i will post..dats me....since i am stuck rite now wif da fluid, so i think dat it would better 4 me 2 check ma blog out..


p/s : 2 papers left to go...fluid mechanics and dynamics

reunion yg xdijangke...(ak plan mse 2 gak sbnarnyer)

stelah lme sdah ak x mnjenguk mmbe2 ak yg kini bertaburan di sekitar UTM ni, sab2 lps, ak smpatlah mluangkan masa dgn dyowg....

walaupon sbnarnye ak dtg nk jmpe wanie psl ak rndu sgt ngan dy, tp ak mmpu mngschedulekn jadualku sndiri sbb ak rse tpanggil nk jmpe dyowg...
pg 2, ak bgn lmbt mcm bese, lps suboh tdo (alamak, trok yer prangai)...lps bgn dri tdo yg kdua, ak pon bgegas mndi, xrebut shower ngan sspe pon...lps ak ak mulakn la routine ak spt bese...namun, hati ak sbnrnyer tgerak nk g PSZ...nk ajk syaf, tp dy cam xnk g...so bbkalkn kdt fon yg sket, ak pon tepon la wanie yg pd wk2 itu berade kt KTF (2 mmg kolej dy)...ak nyatekn hasrat ak nk ajk dy g PSZ, tp tah, dy xmo g...dy kte nk stady kt blek permata kt KTF 2...ak rse cam nk lari dri suasane haruk KP so ak pon siap2 angkat kaki tok kmbali k KTF (KTF 2 kolej lme ak)...tp ak grak lps zohor la....

ak bajet siap cpt smpai cpt...tp x sbnarnye...dan sebenarnye...ak nek bas...hehhe..phm2 la keadaan yg mmkse 2...smpai KTF, ak xtros stady sme dy..cam bese...apabila mmbe lme btemu, ape kteowg wat...bazirkan air luir la dloo...hhha...da rse lme ckp ak ngan dy pon g la blek stady 2.....mngkin ade org pk, 'watpe la ak nk stady jauh2...KTF 2 jauh weyh' dan ak pon akn jwb la 'watpe ko nk sibok, 2 idop ak owh!'....tp ak xd la zalim sgt, ak mseh pompuan melayu terakhir...reason utama knape ak sanggup g kt KTF adelah sbb wanie ney student math..senin r2 ak nk amk paper eng math, so rse xsalah la kalo ak blaja ngan org yg lebih arif dlm bidang dy.....

lps sdah stady, lps asar ak cadang nk jln2 la ngan wanie..jmpe mmbe2 ak yg kt c2 gak...ak sorang j yg dok jauh...mmg dlm 1 sem 2, ak rse 2 adelah second tyme ak jmpe wanie...bpk jarang nk ketemu...

so kteowg pon cdg mkn sme2...jmpe la ngan sumer...except 4 inaz...ak tepon sore dy cam xsaba nk jmpe rmai2..last2 nazu j yg kua dri M27 2...dy nyer xd...mghilang..kte nk stady...aiyhhhh...sabo j la.....



ney adelah wanie, nazu ngan ak...

pttnyer ade gmba yg kteowg 7 org...ak xjmpe lak dlm lp ak ney...

tp 2 la...stelah lme xjmpe kn, rse ble jmpe 2 da len...kalo dloo ble jmpe msing2 akn citer psl mktb k ape mnde yg ade kaitan ngan kteowg...tp kn ble jmpe ngan dyowg r2, kteowg citer psl stady j byk...wanie ngan yat citer psl fac dyowg...lecturer 2 la lecturer ney la...cam2....has ngan nazu plak psl fac dyowg...ak nk citer xd sspe...yelah, ak sorang dak meki kt c2...

tok record,
  • wanie amk math industri fac sains
  • yat amk fzk industri fac sains
  • nazu amk kej kimia bioproses fkksa
  • has amk kej kimia pure fkksa
  • inaz amk kej kimia bioproses
  • nor amk kimia industri fac sains
  • ak amk kej mekanikal aero

dan tok record gak, mse kt mktb ak ngan nazu 2 klsmate, wanie klsmate ngan yat, nor klsmate ngan inaz, has xd klsmate...hehhe
ps2, ak, nazu, nor, yat..kteowg stu homrum...hehhe...bangge mak homrum ak...yeah...

tp kn, rndu gak kt mktb kkdg...rse cam nk blk jap...tp mmg kne balik pon psl nk kne amk sijil spm...adeyh...rsekan la...

ok la..
ckop stakat ini sje bebelan ak dlm warkah maya ini...yeah...

salam...
xoxoxo
ak akn 2lis lg
xoxoxo

p/s : next tyme kalo nk wat reunion ngan dak stg, ak kne stand by dwet owh...mee wantan k11 2 costly gak la...

Saturday, April 25, 2009

life will be no like hell if u follow dis simple rules

  • have faith in Allah..n have faith in everything dat u do...
  • believe in urself...trust urself when nobody trust u...
  • try 2 be perfect even though u noe dat no one is perfect...yeah..dats rite..at least u try...
  • never cheated on urself...cheatin urself is much worst than cheating on the other....
  • motivate urself...
  • try 2 love urself b4 u can try 2 love someone else...
  • family and frens...fes thing on da list.....

Friday, April 24, 2009

abh da owh

yeah...

ak ske gle2 arini...

sbb ak da abh thermo...

bkn ssh, tp still ssh

sbb ak repeat...

xoxo
zati
xoxo

Thursday, April 23, 2009

2morrow

2morrow is ma day

im goin to prove dat i can make it better

yeah

GO THERMO!!!!

why is all black

ma fren once told me...he complained bout ma blog page...he said dat, 'y is all black?, dun u haf another colour 2 make it more attractive?'...
there it goes...
but i was just, let it...
maybe some tot dat i mite not gud at decorating dis stuff...but believe me, i could, but i dunno how...hihi....

then, somehow, i was thinking if i could make it more attractive.....yeah....da post la....if all da posts was not an eye-catching title or words, how could possibly people read thows...

yeah, from now on, i wanna speak out ma mind n say all this stuff of shit whicheva dat come cross ma mind...huhu

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

it's miracle

this kinda tot neva eva cross ma mind....

she changed...

she changed....

da world is gonna changed....

ape yg dy ckp tol2 msk kt jiwa ak....

ak nmpak ape yg btol skang....

ak jnji xmo hanyut

LAGI....

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

peksa2~xd kaitan sgt ngan citer ak~

peksa....
dloo mse kt skolah lme, kt btr, kalo ade exam kt test k pape la, ak mmg xpenah kesah....siap lek2 j lg...tp kn ble ak dpt msk mrsm, ak tgk dak2 dy mmg bbeza la...asl standardize sumer stady cam nk spm...ak yg pade mulenyer mmg xmo ikt care 2 sbb ak nk jd cam btr dloo terikut la jgk...yela, da klsmate ak mse f4, f5 ngan rumates ak pon wat cam2, nk wat camne....secare xlangsung terikut gak la....ingt lg, dloo mse kt btr, kalo sok next week exam, ak stady ckop2 dloo kt umh...owg mmg xnmpk useha ak...hehe...mmg 2 niat ak pon.....ak nk lari dri gelaran skema ngan ulat buku....ps2, ble tyme nk msk kls tok exam, ak pon msk r ngan muke rilek jer....ps2 jwb ngan leklok...membe sumer ckp yg ak jwb mke seyus...kerut...tp ape ak pduli....da ak nk jwb....hahhaha...last2 skor gak...kre skorer btr la neyh...tp ak bkn nyer terkenal sgt pon kt btr dloo...but i got maself frens....aisyah naemah, dahlia, arina, pooi sze...2 sumer mmg membe bek ak la...smpai skang xpenah brubah....sumer still cam dloo, luv dis frenship...hoho....



ney dak2 btr owh...dri kiri, poo sze, aisyah, ak, dahlia ngan arina...


2 mse kt btr, lps 2 ak dpt twrn msk mrsm...serting tw...mmg rmai xtw, tp ak xkesah pon...jnji ak da grad dri ktb ngan jayer nyer....kalo sbut mktb, stu mnde yg ak xdpt luper ialah rumates ak mse f5...mse 2, nadia ngan bella j yg stay...dyowg rumate ak mse f4...sarah yg dipindah msk k blek ak..mle2 rse len, yela, org bru....tp kn da lme2 ak pon rse cam kte sumer mmg ley msk...work 2getha...lg2 mse ade org pecah msk mktb ak...mmg memori la...yela, mne xnyer, org yg pecah msk 2 ikt pgr blakang mktb ak yg kbtulan kt blakang blek ak...mse 2 ak j yg bwk enset...so nk gtw warden la...ak iktkn xley bwk psl ak LDP, tp ak bwk psl ak da nk g tournament silat mse 2....mmg syg r mktb....

xlme lps ak tinggalkn mktb, lps abh spm la....cdg nk wat pape yg bley tmbh dwet poket, tp mmg xtw ape...so ak amk la lesen....dlm tempoh nk dpt kn L 2 ak dpt la plak offer g msk UTM sbg plaja EXPRESS MARA...bunyi cam gmpak kn...tp xgmpak mne pon...P ak sangkut psl ney la....adoiyai....tp kn mmg syukur la dpt mende ney..sbb ak da one step closer ngan cite2 ak...hehe...tp mmg naye la dok utm sbg plaja 4kas (2 gelaran kpd dak express mara)...org blaja kt mtrix sethn, 2 sem...kteowg xsmpai 5 bln...so kalo xwat tol2 mmg naye la....ak ngaku, ak men2 mse mle2...yela, sonok weyh dok u....tp kn lps ak nyer mrkh calculus hancor, mse test 2, ak tros sedar....xnk la xdpt aero...kalo ak xdpt aero, mmg sdeyh bkn kpalang la...sbb mak ayah ak expect da bes from me...mmg rugi la....mse 2 ak twakl j la...kalo xdpt, xdpt...Allah 2 lbeyh tw ape yg terbaek tok hambenyer ini....

tp kn, ak dpt aero...hari ak tw ak dpt aero, ak mlompat2 gle...sonok weyh....cam ko da jd engineer aero da mse 2..dan mse 2 gak la ak terbyg gaji yg byk, umah bsr...hhehee...angan2 j sumer 2....dpt msk aero bru azabnyer...mmg trok kalo ko xdpt survive...ak repeat subjek...khilaf sndiri ae...mmg xmo slhkn sespe....pdn mke sndiri...so skang ak dlm useha nk pulihkn result ak....sem dpn ak da xdkt ngan membe aero ak....mse 2, bye2 farahin (umate ak), kak arin (kakak ak), kak lin (ustazah), kakana (yg plg hot dlm aero, dan kakasyaf (ibu tsyg)....



ney lak dak2 aero, yg brdiri 2, kak arin, ps2 dri kiri, syaf, ana, farahin, ak, dan kak lin


mse 2 ak akn kne pndah kt K11...agk jauh ngan fkm....mmg ssh la gak bg org cam ak yg xreti bwk moto ney...adoiyai....

tp xpe, pengalaman ak mngajar ak erti hidup....bior la ak xkaye dwet, tp ak nk kaye ilmu ngan pengalaman..

xoxox
real beb
xoxox

Monday, April 20, 2009

lyfe

2day i was having ma fes paper...it was titas...i am pretty shi dat yall noe wat it is...huhu...
but da point dat i wanna highlite here is i was so so touch by da muvee dat i just saw 2day...i asked ana 2 download it 4 me and she did...da gud news is da muvee was ready 4 me 2 watch just as i finished ma fes paper...wifout wasting any tyme or moment, i went 4 da muvee....

FOREST GUMP...

i've seen dis muvee b4 on tv..when i was a little...of cos...and i am so glad dat i can see it again...da fes thing dat i tot bout da muvee was, 'wow'..yeah just wow...da muvee is all bout dis guy named FOREST GUMP...he has low IQ...besides, he could not walk...but miracle can happen....he could walk as well as run....it was all because of dis girl named JENNY.....i wont talk bout much of da muvee...im sho dat yall can find it urself...besides, i am not a gud story-teller...

da main reason dat i wanna write here is dis muvee is basicly give me hopes and dreams of becoming somebody instead just be among da somebody....eventhough dat i noe i am exist and always be existed, but deep down inside, i noe i am just nobody....i wanna be recognized too and i got reasons 4 it...im not such a spoil-brat who wanted to be noticed but im just too invisible and i wan to be visible in dis solid world.....just like wat happen 2 forest....at fes, he was way too invisible and only be noticed by da crowd because he was 'stupid'...dey called him dat....i noe how it feels when we be called by dat such name...i was be called by dat name...and i just wanna get out of dis shell at dis fast second... i hope i can.....but after seeing dis muvee, i get dat hope and i wanna reach it...just like foerst, he was nothin b4...but then, he discovered his destiny and he reached 4 it...
i was crying seeing dis muvee....i hope dat i can be like him...haf a tough heart and strong will....

Sunday, April 19, 2009

kisah putih dan merah...

bunyi cam dlm bawang putih ngan merah kan?tp xd la sgt....nk kte psl siska ngan revalina s. temat pon x gak....hehe...

ak pilih tajuk 'kisah putih ngan merah' ney psl mende ney amat berkait rapat antara stu sme lain...mmpunyai bonding yg kwat seakan2 setelah undergo ionic bond (ak xsho tol k x..)...tp kan, xd la sgt...
mende kisah peristiwa ini berlaku akibat hati ak yg tersgt la degil...mmg degil dan ak rse ak ptt amk mende ney sbg pngajaran kerana perkara ney ak ptt ingt smpai ble2....

mende ney berlaku pd pg hari yg sgt indah dan ak rse akan berjln lncar la kalo ak wat xtvt ape2, ( i mean if dis does not happen)....spt bese (kalo dlm skuad, kteowg ckp cam bese), ak bgn pg2..area2 8 lbeyh la (jam ak still consider pg)..lps mndi ak tros on lp, men awtocat...ksygn ak...wat2 la sumer cylinder yg ak xsmpat extrude mlm b4 2, tmbah lobang mne2 yg xckop, ps2 bajet2 kre dimension yg da mmg ak da kre...ngah2 rjin wat, umate ak yg sorang neyh (mmg stu pon umate ak j) pon bru bgn...bgn brsame jasad nyer dan jge idea2 bernas yg xpernah kering (idea ak j kdg2 basah)....dy ckp "goyah, jom kua rini!!", ak terkebil2 mate dgr, tlinge pon cam xcaye..bkn sbb dy xpenah ajk ak cam2, cme sbb ak rse dy ney ade ilmu yg dpt bce mind ak x...ak pon ape lg...mcm org haus coke dihulurkan, ak pon tros mnerime pelawaan umate ak ney....dlm hati, ak mlonjak gumbire dan ak zahirkan jua...huhu...yeah kua beb....

mende2 yg perlu dibwat b4 kua
  • mndi = beres
  • mnum nescafe = beres
  • pilih bju = beres
  • yg penting!!!! kete sewe = beres!!!
yeah..oleh krn sumer equations yg ade lt ats equal ngan beres, bmkne ak mmg akn kua r2 ngan umate ak...hehe...

dlm perjalnn nk 2run amk knci 2, (dlm lif sbnrnyer...), ak tnye farahin, 'bley x ak nk try drive rini...?sket jer....?' dlm ati kalo smpai kua utm pon ley gak...farahin cam bese 'GOYAH,....bkn ak xnk bg ko bwk..tp ko xd lsen, kalo ade pape jd kn ssh' ' tp kn jln dlm utm j, xkn xley kot?' 'tp jln ttp jln, kmlangan kn jd kt ats jln, jln utm 2 pon jln gak...'
demikian la ye kngkwn, ape yg trjd dlm lif...
tp kn, yg pliknyer, lps dpt knci kete, ak amk ps2 tros dok tmpt driver, farahin xkte pape pon...so ape lg...ak pon drive la...cdg nk bwk kua parkin j...yeah, dpt kua woooo.....ps2 ak tros r proceed nk k dpn u5..amk farahin la kunun...hehe...dgn mke yakinnyer, ak soh farahin 'move ova' sket, yelah psl dy hlg jkn mse 2...kang ak langga ssh kang...ps2 ak bwk la mlalui u5, u6...dan....dlm pd mse yg sme, ak ade ternmpak la kete yg jln countercurrent...xsilp ak, 2 jln ak dowh...cilake nyer kete...ngan lajunyer kete 2 meluncur tnpa mmpedulikan ak dan da next thing dat i noe was...DAMN....AK LANGGA KETE HONDA CIVIC WEYH!!!!(yg lme la tp)...bkn kete yg slh jln td, ney kete len yg kt dlm petak parking, kete yg kwang ajo 2 slamat.....ak spt bese...glabah dan kaget ngan situasi....weyh, 2 fes tyme ak drive slps 5 bln lps...dan fes drive accident dan fes drive tnpe lesen...mmg ADOIYAI...ak trbyg wajah kecewa mak ayh ak...mmg shiak la kete yg jln countercurrent mse 2...kalo ak ingt, ak nk aje bakar, ps2 ltopkn...tmbah skali m23...kompem sdp nyer bekecai...xckop lg, ak tmbk gne m16 ak, bkk auto, abhkn peluru stu klopak...bior puas ati den.....
tp apekn daye, ak mmg xingt kete ape, kaler ape, nombo plate ; mmg kurniaan la kalo ak ingt...yg ak tw mse 2, ak mnggigil...kalah kalo mse ak amk final calculus kt dsi dloo....kalah jge kalo ak g kt antartika (ney ak men ptik j)...ak nk tpon farahin, fes attempt, mk lang ney xangkat tepon, tp ps2 dy angkt la.....alhamdulillah, abg kancil yg ak sewe ney ade lak...ak ckp la kt dy yg ak accident....kancilnyer..slamat..HONDA CIVIC (lme) yg ak lngga ney kopak weyh bumper blakang dy...xcaye, tgk neyh



ney isometric psl ade elevation 20 degree


ney lak side view....


ha itulah ketenyer...ak xtw npe ak jd bertnggungjwb sgt, ak pon crik la spe tuan nyer kete...stelah puas crik jmpe la puan nyer kete...yela psl kakak kan....hati dan kotak pkran ak mse 2, 'asl la kakak???pompuan dowh...asl xpondan k?'...xd la smpai pondan ak sbut, 2 tulis jek...tp yg pnting asl la kakak...ak tw kalo ade certain pompuan mmg payah nk bwk negotiate ney...lg stu xsume pompuan mahir dlm nk baik pulih kete ney..stakat bwk mmg la terer...cam ak...hehe..

fes impression ak keatas kakak 2, KEREK owh...korang ptt tgk mkernyer...yelah da kete kne crash..mne x mara weyh..tp agk2 la...ad citer2 sket2 psl kete 2, ak dgr la bait2 perbualan mereka bhwa kos pnyelenggaraan HONDA CIVIC (lme) 2 adela dlm 600 keats...isi hati ak pd mse 2, (DEMAND nk mmpOs!!!) ak bajet la dwet ak akn xd, ps2 terbyg gak la yg ak akn keje kt JJ nnt, jd cashier k atw x pon keje kt HINODE....abh...sdeyh2...

abh2 citer, bkn smbang2 la psti, ak bstuju nk baya gnti rugi....yelah..da nme ak lngga...siot tol la....ps2, yg ayt kakak 2 xbley bla, dy ckp yg pnting jgn r wat2 diam j ae lps ney...ak panas r mse 2...'ko ingt ak xnk baya k?' nk aje ak ckp cm2...kalo ak xnk amk responsible 2 la, da lme ak lngga ps2 lari..tngglkn HONDA CIVIC (lme dy) cam2 j....

ps2 ak g mkn dloo kt kafe pk jamil...mkn la weyh...lapa mse 2....nek ats pk kn pnyelesaian....arap2 ade....yg pnting ANA trkejut yg ak accident...dyowng membe2 aero ak ingt ak guro..adoiyai...yela..ak mne de lesen...dlm kpla ak ingt nk tnye la sspe yg tw kdai kete potong tdkt....anas la spe lg..dy dak tmn u...so mntk la tlg dy...dy la hero dlm mende ney...dy g crikkn kdai, dan waaaa.....ade kdai murah weyh...so xd la terbang dwet ak sbyk 600 keatas....

ptg 2 gak g kdai tolkan kete...ade gak probs ble kakak 2 xmo fes bumper yg di offer....ak nk aje kte 'xyah la pk2 sgt, taw la ak baya, jgn r demand, jnji kete ko bley jalan...sudeyh...', tp xtkua lak...so ikt la dy, xmo bumper second hand...nk yg fes hand aje...dlm pd mse 2 gak, ak ade la tnye, 'akak asl mne?' dan dy pon jwb la 'slangor'....ps2 ak tnye lg, 'slangor ktne kak?' dan dy pon jwb ngan spatah 'klang'...ak tnye lg, 'klang ktne kak?' penat tw ak nk type camney tw... ps2 dy jwb (ngan arrogant nyer) 'BANDAR'...alamak...aiyh....dlm kpla otak ak, nk aje ak ckp...'AK KL XD PON NK CKP BANDA!!!!!'.. tol2 cam shiak weyh...bajet ak kg sgt la....adoiyai.....


dan, story nyeh pon abh lbeyh kwang camney je...sbb ak da mls nk type lg...tp yg pnting mse kakak 2 dpt blek kete dy, dy xkte timer kasih pon...ak xmntk pon timer kasih dy tp pk2 la...berat sgt k nk ckp TQ 2...ak bkn xtolong 2kakn bumper dy..ak wat weyh...siap cat ngan fes hand lg 2...430 ak hilang psl HONDA CIVIC (lme dy)...mmg hangin stu bdan....tp nk wat camne salah ak gak...psl ak ingt 2 slah ak la ak wat2 lek j...yela, ak da lngga.....



p/s: bwk kete len kali kne ade lesen ae...

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

how fun it is?

even ma mood is about to write, and i put ma passion on it, on da other side, i still hold back....dunno wat is or are da real reason dat i must hold back and be in silent but i am...was, is and always...stay in silence....even ma lips just cannot understand wat silence is, but i do live in silence...sometimes, demure kinda person, yeah it is me...but, people dat r all around me just like thinking dat i was live in da other world...'such a shit when u was thinking dat u r silence'...dey said...but 'u r silence'...dats wat da strangers think of who am i.... and yeah...wat does da strangers thinks of me is quite rite...i am silence....yet, it claims suffer...i was suffucating in silence..people around me didnt noe bout dat...i was crying in silence.....dey thought dat i was happy....

silence pays nothing....speak when u haf to...da words dat u uttered are such valuable....

Friday, April 10, 2009

number wat? post......

hoho...believe me, yesterday ive done ma dynamcs test...it was da thrd test....but HELL me coz an eve b4 da test, i still cannot understand how 2 answer correctly da question....i still cant analysed da problems correctly, and da worst is ma PA was kinda mockin at me cos i cant see da problems da lies in da question clearly....durhhh...i shudnt to...i mean i shud pay more attention in class (i did), but, yeah...i didnt....


just now, i read ur blog arina...(bintang kusowt)...pape la spelling dy....perghhh...wat can i say dat ur language really trigger me gal!!!...ur words, ur sentences...warghhh...i luv 'em all....i shud tell everyone bout it.....hhahaha

2nite, ive got another test..it is an Engneering drwing...shud bring all those stuff...i thought of dat....and i just can hope 4 da best 4 ma test...

Sunday, April 5, 2009

jauhkah ak dgn pncipta...

yesterday, i called ma sis which is kinda far from here (as long as i cant see her face, i considered far). of cos she told me everything dat had happened to her dis entire tyme when im not around and believe me all of her story kinda 'not' really trigger me...she will be sat for her SPM paper dis november....and all i can do bout it is only wish her luck and not to forget she told me to come home and teach her physics.....yeah, i will teach u ana.. dun worry bout dat....
but, dats not da main point dat i wanna shout out here....one of her story really has triggered me down ma vein...it was really a-heart-pounding chit chat and i was crying last nite by thinking of it...
she told me about her dream...in her dream, she saw me....i was deformed...according to her...da body was me, yeah, i was slim, tall and lean...she saw dat...but da face, shes wasnt me...she said dat i was black-burnt, chubby and completely deformed.....people mite think y shud i believe in those stuff...it's a farce thow...but i am not to think of dat....she dreamt about it rite after she performed her tahajud....i story-tell dis back to Kak Lin as she noes everything bout dis better than me....she asked me, wat was ma last tyme recite Koran? i told her, last week (eventhow i was kinda ashamed to tell her, but i told her, 4 ma own gud u noe)...she mocked me and kinda got fierce wif me....she told me dat, y i'd leave it 4 a such a long tyme?..dats ma fault..i admit...she did some brainwashing things to me yeaterday nite...and luckily, when da tyme i got back to ma room, i perform ma isya' and last nite id recited Yasin and AlMulk...Alhamdulillah...i was fine...ma spirit came back and i think dat i can live up da day...and yes...i did live ma day 2day...

p/s; life is not bout winning and be on da top entire tyme, life is about getting urself out from da sea when u get drowning and learn how to be on da bottom...

Thursday, April 2, 2009

sememangnye ak mahu mnyatakn mende ney da lme...

b4 ney, ak xpenah telibat secare serius dlm pape mende yg melibatkn prkare2 yg tlampaw lasak...tp lps msk palapes bru ak tw ape mkna lasak yg tsirat disebalik segale2 latihan 2....but, b4 dat, rather than latihn fizikal yg lasak ak nk ckp n mnyuarakn isi hati ak selame ney psl hormat mnghormati....

maybe it's just i shudnt haf 2 talk bout dis, but i want 2....be in army things is not as easy as it looks, (i dun think dat it is or was easy), just face it, if i were real soldier, i haf 2 wake up at 5, preparing da things dat supposed be prepared and so much things to do....i cant listed all those here...rahsia negare....and da most important things dat shud be highlighted here is respection...(does dis word exist?).....when i was in training session, i really haf to fake maself...i have 2 become 2 wat have become....means i was not me at dat tyme...i was somebody else....i just 'bowed' down to da highest rank in da squad and durhhh dat was not me....but i did those because i haf to...if im not, hell again...i'll be doomed...