KONVOI RAYA

smalam, 14 sept 2010, ak coretkan lagi peristiwe raye tok thn neh. boleh kte hampir tiap2 thn ade aje peristiwe duka + suke yg ak wat. kalo ikotkan last year suppose to be da best one, but then turn up a lil bit disappointed since ma dad got mad at me, (disaster i created cause i didnt get home at da tyme i said i would to ma dad).

raye 2008..fes year..g umh mkck ak kt kulai...2getha ngan dak aero..

dis raye, again, i tried to make nought-disaster yet i created.

hush...

at first, raye kali neh janjinyer nk kua raye ngan dak2 BTR yg ak expect-nyer xbape ramai. tp ble ak sampai, leh ckp ade 5 kete involved.

ak arap2 mse mule2 2 ade la dlm mmbe2 klas ak yg ak knal. tp it turn up to be, a mere stranger when a bunch of i-dunno-who-they-are guys came out from nowhere (soori korang, tp mmg ak xcam muke korang).

spt yg ak xsangka, ak jd stranger dlm kelompok kengkwn ak ble ak xbertegor LANGSUNG ngan guys tuh. niat asal nk ajk dak2 kls 3B thn 2005 neh berkecai cam2 jeh. ceh....

tp, dlm kalangan ak xknal 2, sbnaryer, sorang j yg ak xdpt recall mke dy. apetah name dy, langsung x-ring da bell. ak klasifikasikan sbg sume 2 strangers psl ak rse cam tgh berkwan ngan totally strangers psl even muke ak recognize tp self dyowg mmg ak xtw langsung.


xpe, berbalik pada crite, smlm sbyk 10 umh kteowg g beraye. kteowg stat ngan umh;

1. zulaikha
2. nadzirah
3. syah
4. raja
5. azmeer
6. maziah
7. arina
8. dahlia
9. aisyah
10.sarah

actually, umh ak mule2 nyer ade dlm list. dan mmg terniat gak kt ati ak neh nk ajk dyowg dtg umh. tp psl dak laki ramai (yg ak xbpe suke tok dtg umh) ade, ak pon ubh niat. UMAH AK UNAVAILABLE...
tp ak kesian gak mngingatkan mak ayh ak kt umh dok sibok wat keje nk mnyiapkan umh sbb ak bgtw yg dyowg neh nk dtg. tp nk wat camne, sbb ayah ak pon sependapat ngan ak, so ak kureng la rse bersalah 2 sket sbb xajk dyowg.
lg stu, it seems dat dey like COMPLETELY FORGOT BOUT MA HOUSE, so ak neh da cam kinda merajok la...

kteowg berjalan (not literally) pkai kete...ngeh2..dan perjalanan ke setiap umah2 neh xterase penatnyer kecuali satu umh neh...

nk g umh sarah neh, mmg tol2 mnyedarkan kami2 neh bhwe sarah neh sanggop dtg jmpe kteowg jauh dari sepang. mule2 ak xmindset pape pon psl sepang neh. psl sepang neh jauh?, lagilah xterlintas yg sepang neh jauh wlwpon ak tw yg sepang neh dkt ngan KLIA sme it INTERNATIONAL CiRCUIT...

perjalanan almost an hour tu wat kmi sumer completely penat...

sampai pon dlm kul 10 lbeh...tah ape la mak piki, ak pon xtw...tp mak dy sambut kteowg ngan eppi la...sbb dtg dri jauh...tp mmg hampeh la kaum2 kami neh, beraye sakan smpai dtg umh org Malam2..

moral of da story, xyah r beraye sakan sgt2....




p/s; entry neh ak wat psl nk wat coretan psl raye thn neh sket..kalo 2lis lmbt kompem lupe...


xoxo
zthmd
1327 15092010

Kes Lambat..

agak kesian r tok ak, yg slalu ketinggalan zaman.
bkn ak x alert. dan bukan ak neh idop bwk tempurung kelape. infact, kelape nyer tmpurung pon xmmpu mnutupi ak..ak slalu lmbt follow something. kat bwh nie adelah 5 bende yg ak lmbat follow dan ak rse amongst da top sbb agk important tok ak;


1. BIG BANG
neh bkn nyer big bang theory tuh. mende alah 2 ak da tw mse skolah rendah lg. cikgu ak dok asek cerita...

big bang neh adelah grup korea yg dianggotai 5 org mamat mude. umor stok2 ak gak..they r
G-Dragon
TOP
Taeyang
Daesung
Sungri


ak stat minat mse dpt tw lgu tell me goodbye..perghhh..mmg kompem bes. tp kan, Nina da lme cite kt ak psl big bang, 2am, 2pm..byk lg la. cme ati j xterbuke. ak jd stat minat sume neh pasal ade stu ari 2 lepak blek Bana (yg kebetulannyer dok dpn blek ak j). dy tunjuk sket j lagu2 jpon ngan korean. tp sbb folder dy byk sgt, ak insist nk tgk yg tulah, inilah, sampai dy tunjukkn sumernyer...jd, skang ak da mnat gle ngan Big bang tnpe mngetahui bhwe yg band neh da lme gle wujud. fes album xtw la thn ble. 2008 xsilap. mse tuh pon dyowg da ckop famous.

lambatnyer ak mnat dyowg....


2. 2NE1band neh mirip Big Bang version pompuan j. ade 4 org sumernyer. mereke terdiri dprd

Park Bom
CL
Minzy
Sandara @ Dara
fes2 ak nmpak mnah2 neh, ak piki mmg plik r minah korea neh. leh plak r rambut 2 ikat satu tercacak atas kpla (trademark Dara). pesen plik2...pas2, ak piki chumel dyowg neh kompem plastik. bajet tol dywog neh. nk lawa, sampai sanggup g operate. x ori langsung.

tp kan, ak stat mnat kt dyowg psl dyowg neh beza gle la ngan grup gal korea len. xd mnggedik sgt. kalo tgk Wondergirl, ssnd, perghh. nek meluat ak.
lagu dyowg pon cathcy gak. sbb ak ske dance music, so mmg ak ske r dywog neh. lg stu, english dywog mmg xpelat korea langsung. sme r cam big bang. sbot english word x berterabur. tp xtw la ble speaking, ok kot...

3. Harry Potter
ikotkan, citer neh kua mse ak darjah 5. buku plak kua mse ak darjah 1. nk mnat bace bku ENGLISH (terutamanyer) mse ak darjah 1 mmg haram la. nk tgk muvee mse ak darjah 5, nk tgk ktne. mse 2 umh ak xpkai vcd pon. sbb tv ak xleh pkai pape player. tv ak neh tv lme, leh received siaran j la.

ak stat tgk citer neh lps 2 thn dy kua. ak stat ngan Harry Potter and The Sorcerer's Stone. ak bli dvd neh psl mse 2 ayh ak bru bli player. ak stat tgk. BES!..

ak tgk citer 2 berulang2. siap hafal dialog skali.

mse form 2, ak kumpul harry potter nyer bku, ngan muvee smpai yg azkaban nyer. mse muvee azkaban tu kua, ak cam xheran sgt r. sbb ak da abh bce bku mse 2.huuu...

ak ter-noticed gak bbrape flaws yg ade kt muvee kalo kompare ngan bku..(tp smemangnyer begitu, kajian mmbuktikan)..tp ak xkesah pon. dlm thn yg sme gak, ak tlh khatam goblet of fire ngan order of pheonix..tp ble msk yg half blood ngan deathly hallow ak da mls nk bce da. bku rowling makin tebal, sbb dwet dy makin byk kot. ak cadang nk tunggu bku 2 msk wayang j bru ak nk hurri...


4. Hana Yori Dango

neh mmg superberb lambat. citer neh kua thn 2005, ak stat tgk 2009. amk ko, kalo ade anak, da leh anta tadika da...

yg version jpon ngan korean j ak lmbt. yg taiwan nyer mmg ak follow abh. 2 sumer berlaku mse ak form 1. huh..

kalo ikotkan, jln citer sumer sme. care pengolahan j la yg len. yg korea nyer ak xtgk lg, so ak akn compare pas ak da tgk korea nyer...tp pape pon yg pasti jepon nyer la yg plg singkat. korea intermidiate, taiwan nyer, bapak novel...


5. blog zack zuhairi

walawpon ak neh blogger gak, tp ak xbergiat aktive sgt dlm bidang penulisan ney. tgk entry 2010. mmg cam saket r mnulis. ayt da lintang pukang. ak stat menulis blk sbb aritu stat bce novel blk. (psl novel 2 ak crite kmudian)

ak jd lmbt sbb mse ak tw psl blog neh, ak tgk rmai da mmbe2 ak follow. adui...

pas2, ble ak nk jd fren dlm fb da xdpt. tp mmg sumpah r bes blog neh.

ayat dy jgn cakap r. mmg standard dak2 zaman skang r. plg bes psl blog 2 adelah katun2 kpla bulat 2. pastu ble smpai bab entry psl jepon. huhu...da r ak mmg ske bab2 jepon neh...


heh
penat menaip nmpak...

so gotta stop here..

xoxo
zthmd
12092010
2031

AERO SMT

besenyer kalo ak ad mood nk menulis j ak akn mnulis, tp sbb da lme xmnulis (tp entry bru j bpe ari lps), ak rse nk 2lis skit mnde kt dlm blog ak neh....kalo scrool kbwh dan kbwh blog ini korang akn dapati yg ak byk omong psl dak2 palapes seta skod ak j..kwang beno ckp psl dak2 aero...sbb xtw ape nk 2lis psl dyowg, so ak xtulis pape pon..bkn xpenah trpikir psl nk 2lis, draft da ade pon, tp malangnyer idea ak mati takat situ j...

gmba last year b4 turun abseiling...1 skod neh...

so rini mw ngobro psl dak2 kls ak....

mse first year g Nusajaya

kls ak neh, (sorii korang) actually smpai skang ak xtw bpe jumlah sebenar-benarnyer..sbb ade aje mass flow in and flow out, (nme aero, so kne ckp style fluid)

kalo di ikutkan, mse mle2 msk dloo ade la dlm dkt 10 org IS, tp skang ak tgk da jd 1 j...yg len, tah men xtw...nk cite 1 1..pnjang tuh, tp xpe...kls ak ade 6 org j dak pompuan intake degree 0809, dan campo 2 org direct intake serta campo sorang dak direct intake yg bkn 1 kos tp slalu 1 kls.hehe...
mereke adelah;
1) kak lin @ nur amalina musa2) norfarahin mohamed khairi3) nur syafiqah jamaluddin4) nur azreen amira borhan5) nur fareena asli6) adila zulkefli
7) nazurah jusoh
8) marsha marcuss

ak rse ak hnaye mmpu nk mnyenaraikan nme dak2 pompuan j ngan nme pnoh. sbb xrmai dan kompem xkeliru (sgt) nme ayh dyowg.

hero2 kls ak plak (hero la sgt..)
kun ye
asan
krol
irsyad
izaat
izzat
~izzati~
anas
fahmi
fuad
syafiq
faisal
faiz
peajal
remi
zul
jeme
amin
faris
....(try ingat lg)....
kimi
zulkifli anak sabu
naavin
nicholas
raj
giru
loh
chan
cheng kai hua
wong
chris
.......

alamak soori la kengkwn, ak da terlupe r nme, mke mmg kompem la ak ingt...

berbalik pada cerita..kalo nk ikotkan, mse fes year dloo, lg2 mse fes sem, kpla mseh fresh pas abh blaja kt mtrix ngan 4kas, so smangt msk degree agk tinggi serta nk beronggeng..

kalo nk ikotkan gak, mse fes year neh. ak ngan dak pompuan yg len (5 org 2) mmg byk kua. jgn ckp tebraw yg jauh 2 kteowg da sampai, danga city mall yg bru rasmi 2 pon da puas bejalan. xckop ngan 2, smpai dpt create TRAGEDI DEZHARUde-za-rhu

pd ak, 2 mmg sweet memories la mse fes year..

gmba kls mse fes year..

gmba mse second year plak...

tp ble da nek second year, ak da jarang kua. mksd ak jarang kua ngan dak2 aero, excepted 4 kak lin...hehe

sbb ble da msk second year ak da stat bermastautin kt KOLEJ 11. mse 2, tman2 kluar jln2 ak adelah dak2 skod ak sendiri. mse 2 mmg slalu bertuka2 partner klua jln la. neh maybe terjadi sbb kt sni, rmai mmbe pompuan. bkn ak nk ckp ak xbese ngan mmbe laki, tp da mmg ak xbese, so nk wat camne.pd ak ble ak kua ngan mmbe pompuan ak neh, i am more myself. so lbih open dan lbih enjoy..yahhhooooo

dan mse second year neh gak ak jarang kua psl ak ade konflik dlm dri ak. lg2 mse second sem. mse 2 ak tol2 nk blaja tol2 nk pulihkan result ak. 2.41 pd ak mmg ckop trok dan bkn pd ak j, maybe pd sume org. ditambah lg ngan kegagalan 1 paper. so semangat ak tok bangkit mse second sem mmg tinggi. ak rse diri ini xlayk di panggil dak U. aduhh...

tp ble da msk third year neh, ak rse nk seimbang antare aero dan palapes serta dunia akhirat. sbb mnde 2 mmg penting tok dri ak.
tp perasaan nk bersame2 kembali ngan dak2 kls ak neh hanyer hangat2 tahi aym sbb ak xrse ak support dywog sgt. yela, GOP 2 da la ak xdpt join. (trime ksh sgt2 pd palapes sbb wat ak melepas g INDIA)

lg 1, ak rse sbb ak slalu mmencilkan dri mse second year dloo, ak rse ak da x dinoticed lg sbg dak 3SMT. (serve me rite, spe soh)

tol x ckp ak, xdinoticed...ak wat keje sorang2 tuh...huuu

tp, walawpon xdinoticed, ak maseh tabah tok try me-wujudkan dri dlm komuniti 3SMT neh. ak try crik blk dri ak mse kt skolah dloo. ak cube tok dukung prinsip Rasul kte, Muhamad s.a.w...care Beliau, kalo ade xprasan, tp ble xd rse ketidakhadirannye.hebat kn...

so, ak amat harap sgt2 thn 2012 nt kte sume grad ssme..xkesah la korang nk dok side fes klas honour k, wat klas anypon, tp yg penting kte grad ssme. amk ijazah sarjana muda mekanikal aeronautik ssme. mse 2 kte 1 klas leh lambung topi ijazah ssme. pas2 leh amk gamba ssme...

ak pasti every each dak klas ak hold wish yg sme. either malu nor segan nk ckp atw tulis j.hehe...xpe, ak sampaikan neh.tp papepon, da 3 thn ak msk klas ngadap mke2 yg sme. tgk pon da xd perasaan pape da..

so, keep up da guud wox between each other dan GUDLUCK GOP nt!!!kim salam la kt taj mahal ble sampai sne....


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zthmd.10092010. 1445

RAYA.D.RUMAH

kalo dgr dri tajuk mmg bunyi nyer sdap ssgt..ye la, raye kt umh kn, kpd mmbe2 ak kt perantawan 2, msti jeles r gak (kompem jeles) dgr tajuk neh.tp tajuk kt ats 2 agk oppose ngan perasaan yg ak lalui skang neh. bkn nk kte raye kt umh neh x bes, tp sbb spirit raye ak 2 da xd...kre kalo diterjemahkan dlm cite2 omputih 2,cam dak2 yg da besar yg da ilang krismas spirit (eceh,,)

pak cik kringle bwk beg hadiah...tp kalo krismas spirit da xd, xd maknenyer...hohoho

kalo nk di-trace back camne spirit@semangat raye ak neh ilang, mngkin leh dikaitkan ngan keadaan sekeliling. msk raye thn 2010 neh da bleh kte genap 9 thn ak menyambut syawal kt umh. last tyme ak blk raye kt kampung mse ak darjah 5. kalo pd sspe yg mmnpunyai daya ingatan yg xbrape kuat, (maybe sbb ter-slalu mnum air ade semut) mmg kompem2 nyer xdpt flashing back mse raye 2. tp Alhamdulillah, ak ingat lg.dan kalo di-trace kan blk gak, seingat ak, raye yg ak stat sambut adelah mse ak umo 3 thn. (fact: otak manusia stat simapn memori mse umo kte 3 thn). tp ble ak tnye mak ak raye mse ak 3 thn blk mne, mak ak jwb joho, tp xsilap ak ingt perlis...(aishhh...sah ak lpe gak.)mse raye thn 1993 2 mmg ye, ak blk kulai, johor. sbb ade gamba ak ngan adek ak yg mse 2 mseh lg infant...umo 1 thn..seingt ak, mse 2 kak lina ngan abg azni ak (mereke spupu ak) sbok men mercun dpn umh. sbb umo ak teramat la xsswai men mnde alah 2, so ak hnye mmpu mnyaksikan keindahan bunge api serta mendengar kebisingan bnyi mercun....

ak rse korang leh cam kot mne ak...adek ak kompem2 la hok kecik 2...abg azni ak ngan kak lina yg dok blakang 2..

pastu, mse raye umo 4 thn, mntak maap la...ak da lpe..mse 5 thn pon xbpe ingt...sme gak ngan mse 6 thn...

tp mse darjah 1, ak agk ingt. sbb mse 2 ak sbok wat own-countdown..mse 2, kmi satu famili sbok gak r berkemas nk balik raye. tarikh tiket 2 31 januari 1997. xtw la ari ape dan tarikh pe dlm bulan hijrah. tp mse 2 mmg sbok r nk blk. xsilap mse 2 blk joho. sbb ade gamba ak beraye kt sne. mse 2, arwah watih (panggilan tok nenek ak side ayh ak) ade lg. mmg 2 raye last la ak ngan dy. seingat ak dy bek sgt. ak ngan ana kne marah pon dy tolong back up. perghhhh...

ney adelah ak bersama adek ak mse pagi raye
kt kulai umh makcik ak...tgk 2, bju kaler sme j.
.

neh plak adelah adek ak..sbok kmas umh
mkck ak mse org tgh nk raye..alahai..rajin r kunun...

mmg bes r raye mse 2. pastu, mse thn after 2 xblk mne2 sbb ak, mak ngan ana da spent mse almost 1 month kt perlis. atas sbb ape, ak xmo state kt sni. (family probs). dan dlm mse sebulan 2 gak r ak, mak ngan ana skali ngan arwah tok aa (panggilan tok nenek ak side mak pulak) p kulim kedah. umh mak su ak. mse 2 tgh SPM, mksu ak neh cikgu kimia, so mse org tgh SPM dy kne r jge student. pastu, dy neh adelah guru yg mark paper kimia. ak tgk2 gak dy tande paper mse 2. paper yg dy tanda tu tlh ditanda terlebih dahulu da. kre hebat r mkcik ak neh. xsilap dy head of marking kot.

tp mse kt perlis 2 gak, sedare2 ak dri Kelang, pak jang sekeluarge pon blk gak. xlme r. (oppsss, pas g kdah, blk perlis blk.) mse 2 ayah da ade. amk kteowg blk KL. mmg sronok gle kot.huuuuu...ookeh, back to our cite, pak jang blk bwk anak2 dy. mse 2 ade 5 j. skang da jd 6. dlm anak2 dy yg rmai 2, ak byk lepak ngan amirul ngan hafiz j. anis xkre psl dy da mmg dlm toplist. ak byk men mercun ngan dak 2 org neh psl anis slalu ( g mne tah ak xingt, k anis xjoin) xd. tp, skang dak2 sume da bsr da. sume amk kos2 kritikal, along da jd doktor, hafiz plak akauntan, amirul plak doktor gak, anis pon sme. adek dy plak skang kt mrsm..perghhh..mmg well-bred family lah.
eh, back to our story blk, (asek ter-detour j). mse raye darjah 3 xsilap blk kg perlis. xdpt rekod memori pape sgt. psl sumer da berselirat ngan memori thn ble tah. (len kali rekod siap bubuh tarikh, adoiii)

msk raye mse darjah 4, ak ingt. psl mse neh da bijak sket. ak wat note 2. hihi...no wonder r ak wat blog skang. mse 2, everyday, eveready ade entry. xpenah ttinggal. ak siap countdown ari nk blk sbelom umat Islam stat berpuasa lg. perghhh....sbb mse 2 da stat cuti. so mmg byk mnulis la. ak ingt lg, mse 2 kemaruk tgk katun HEY ARNOLD ngan MOJAKO. mse 2, lagu mojako yg jepon siap ak hafal. da nme kemaruk kan....

kyannn...konniciwa...watashi, mojacko-des...

mse raye thn 2, blk perlis gak. yg wat lg bes sbb ade mak lang ni skali. mse 2 dy tgh blaja kt tmn shamelin. yg kebetulan mmg agk dkt r ngan umh ak, xsmpai 2 marhalah la. bes pasai dy slalu mai. dtg bwk mknan r, tp yg penting pasai ade org bbuke pose skali ngan family ak. 2 yg bes sgt. balik ngan dy serta kwn dy sorang. org perlis gak. nek bas mse 2 kt jln duta. gerak mlm smpai dlm kul 5 pagi. mse 2, tok su amk (mak lang ni ak adelah kazen mak ak, tok su 2 adelah bapak mak lang ni ak)

raye thn 2 mcm bese gak. mkn laksa. org perlis neh mmg kalo raye wat laksa. xsume tp majoriti. ketupat plak, ketupat daun palas. ade la rendang dan yg len2 cam bese. agak berbeza kalo raye kt johor. juadah yg wajib mse kt johor adelah ketupat nasi, ketupak lepat (dlm 2 ade pulut+kacang), rendang, sate, serunding. kre kalo raye kt johor feeling dy len, dan raye kt perlis feeling dy pon len.

kalo dloo, mse raye kt perlis, xsampai 1 week pon kt sne ckp kunun2 nk style utare.2 kalo dlm umh. kalo kluar, jjln mne2, style KL nk dikekalkan. so nt org akn tnye, 'hang dri mna?' ak ngan gaye innocent, tp ngan gahnyer mnjawab, 'sayE dari KL.' ngan seboleh2nyer xmo ade bunyi uruf baku kt c2. nk ikot style KL la kn.hehe...childish.

mse raye darjah 5 neh la raye last tok ak rse beraye ngan sedare-mare. mse raye neh gak r, wa in (panggilan tok pak long) ak blk. raye neh beraye kt perlis. mse raye neh lah gak, for da fes time, i knew ma wa in. kalo x, slame neh arap mak ak cite j. lupe nk ckp, mak ak ade 5 beradik. mak ak anak nombo 2. pas2, ade mak lang, pak jang ngan maksu. hanyer mak lang j yg stay ngan tok aa. mak lang j yg dok ngan tok aa tok jge dy. anak mak lang neh ade 2. yg sulung 2 baye ak. nmenyer jannah. skang ak xtw r plak dy ktne, watpe (ape pnye sepupu la ko neh zati). yg sorang lg 2, fatin.

raye neh jd las gak psl thn after2 2 kami 1 family da stat raye kt KL. atas few reasons which cannot be revealed, ayah refused nk blk mne2. kalo nk blk johor pon xleh gak sbb pas thn 1997 watih da kembali ke rahmatullah. nk blk perlis, mmg tidak la.

so sejak dri 2, ak jd la peng-observe berjaya tok sspe yg tinggalkan umah dy kt KL neh. tp suasana berbeza da setahun ke setahun. kalo dloo, KL lengang ble org blk kampung, tp skang da xlengang mne dah. sbg contoh. kt tmpat bru ak bermastautin neh, ritu mlm raye da mcm rupe kt medan da. mortar 60mm tmbak sne, launhcer la, cam2 lg la. cme xd mercun yg bunyinyer persis m16 ngan gpmg j. meriah sungguh...

suasana raye ak berevolusi dari suasana childish, ke alam student. kalo dloo, org xsaba nk blk raye kt kampung, ak plak len, xsaba nk blk beraya kt umh. makne raye ak adelah cuti kt umh, sambil penohkan perot. kre raye ak da cam meaningless la.kalo dloo mse form 5, blk siap bwk bku sbb pas raye ade trial mara (yg melayakkan ak msk UTM skang). mse fes year, pon xbrape sgt. sme la cam second ngan yg third neh. skang ak lebih senang sambut raye neh spt bulan kemenangan tok umat islam sbb da berjaya kawal nafsu buas 2 selame 1 bulan. huh...takat raye cam dlm ati j ckop la. mls nk terover2. byk mnde lg nk kne kover ngan duwet neh. bkn nyer scholarship bg bounty pon mse dkt nk raye. ceh....

jadi, kalo nk raye 2 bersederhana sudah. ingt lagu senario ckop.

berhabis xberkire
asal nmpak bergaye walaw hutangnye panjang berjela

haha
sekian sje lah nukilan ak sempena raye neh. kne stady plak (rosak mood) sal pas raye neh ade test....


xoxo
zthmd
second.raye.
10.09.2010.1139

kepala-beku

nukilan di kala kepale kerunsingan...

ak renung k langit, nyata khirmizi masih lg

kelihatan dan ak tundukkan kembali pandangan

k arah buku control engineering yang maseh

terbukak2 tersentuh pon tidak itu...

td lecturer aerodynamics ak ade berkate,

aerodynamics neh di apply dlm hampir setiap

bidang. kalo nk design aerofoil, kompem2 la

kne gne, nk design kete, bot, side mirror dan

tah pape lg brg yg penting ade aje unsur

aerodynamics...dan moral of da story beliau

adelah, AERODYNAMICS neh amatlah penting dlm

kehidupan seharian serta byk kegunaannya...

tp, pd ak, aerodynamics neh adelah amatlah

penting sbb kalo ak fail subjek neh, alamat

tinggal lme la ak kt sini...(jd penunggu

setia kt UTM neh)...if failed dis subject,

flight mechanics tergendala, aerodynamics 2

pon ckp tunggu jap dan tah pape lagi subjek

bertangguh ney pon sbok nk ckp, STOP AND

WAIT...bkn stop and stare...

tp nk wat camne, da ak yg plih kos neh stlah

berpikir panjang (sjak ak dri form 4)..tp mse

ak pilih kos neh mne la ak tw kalo blaja aero

neh kne design aerofoil...ceh, ingat takat

nek kpal terbang sne nuh pas2 btol2kan wayar2

yg berselirat kt dlm kokpit dy tuh..ceh,

penat chek berangan sorang2...

xpela...
biarkan semua itu berlalu dlm flow yg bergitu

steady, tnpe sebarang decrease in mass and

velocity....

xoxo
zthmd.d.kalabosan.

yaya AGAIN

ttbe, lg skali, ak ade plak mood nk mnulis...(mite sbb bru pas abh bce novel x, byk sgt monolog dalaman)

mngkin sbb tekanan cos siling blek ak da cam ade formula solid, tp ak still gagahkan dri ak tok mnghadapi ari sok...

sbb pe, sok ak akn training..sok gak dgr NINA bce ikrar kesatria (huhu...) dan sok gak la, PT2 cam harem akn di-introduce-kan...so kne redha la..(sesungguhnyer, ak SEDANG berpuasa)...

ape yg ak cbe nk 2lis dlm post kali neh ialah, ak rse GUMBIRE sgt2 sbb g bazar td...bkn sbb dpt bli murtabak murah yg sdap kesukaan ak, tp sbb dpt eye2eye ngan dak yg ak minat...

perghhh...neh mmg kes brani gle sbb ak 2lis dlm blog...adoiii....bln2 pose cam gini mnggatal plak ae ko zati...

tp, alah, takat eye2eye 2 perkare bese j. sbb ak yakin, nme ak pon tah2 dy xtw..tp mmg saket r kalo dy xknal ak...trok dak 2 kang ak bantai...(dy bkn just DAK YG AK MNAT SJE)...

tp, perkare 2 bknla jge perkare utama yg ak nk 2lis dlm blog neh, cme selingan, nk wat nmpak gempax...
perkare yg ak try nk smpaikan ialah, novel JAJA DAN DIN 2 tol2 wat ak moved. mmg tol2 wat ak moved..(no repeating after dis)..
kalo korang bce novel 2 kan, mmg rse tol2 nk jd seorang yg bru dan kwat smangat...

mite b pade sspe yg bce novel neh, tp bkn taste dy, dy akn rse jaja neh mnggatal, tp kn, pd ak xsemudah itu ak nk judge jaja neh...maybe la kot, for da very first impression, she a lil bit of mnggatai, tp kn dy x tw...

watak dy, kalo ak bleh kaji, ak klasifikasikan sbg bijak mmbuat taktik (smemangnyer dak2 skuad ak kne blaja dri dy neh) kuwat smangat dan sgt mnurut kata....kalo da ati dy kate putih, smpai abh crite dy asek kte putih j...so, mmg kwat smangat tol la...


so, sbb farahin ade komen nk bce novel neh, ak rekemenkan try crik kt kdai...hage dy dlm 20 kot...20hinggit j...(xpe, MARA bg 600)..dan ak brani ckp, xrugi la kalo bce...mmg bes gle...


xoxo
kalola ak ade kple otak cam kak su 2, tah2 bpe novel tah ak da wat..

hehe

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nuisance and anxiety dat be brought in this atmosphere has intensely overwhelmed me. i really caught in this bad bussiness between me and da surrounds.

all the love have vanished in da midst air. i tried to breathe for it, but for heaven sake, i couldnt.

if in the name of science, ma experiment with da death can be considered as ethically accepted, i would done it. yet, da feeling of why shud i lose all instead i could gain back it again, i came into ma senses.

i realized, i cannot be da perfect person of all the person, but it worth trying. so, why would i try?

see da lite in different perspective, doesnt mean dat i see a different lite. but it still it is, da same lite.


xoxo..im.disturbed..

jaja dan din

seteguh cinta jaja dan din

sbb ttbe ade mode dan mood nk mnulis, ak

nukilkan kt sini...(even ak still nga sbok nk

stadi SOLID)

bru j td ak khatam novel jemari seni, JAJA

DAN DIN tulisan NOOR SURAYA, ak rse cam ak

still terapung2 kt awan lg...again, credit kt

umate ak, hidayah, sbb rekomen kt ak novel

2..(xrekomen sgt pon, novel 2 ade j kt meje

dy)

ak rse neh adelah second tyme ak bce novel

dan hati ak terarah kpd mnde2 yg bek2 sket

neh. cam sem lps, pas abh bce citer VERSUS

tulisan HLOVATE, ak rse cam nk berubah. rse

cam nk crik satu mnde dlm dri ak yg da lme

ilang.

dan kadang2 plak, sifat girlish ak yg xbape

byk neh ttbe menonjol sket2 pas abh bce novel

neh...

secare kseluruhannyer, novel2 neh ak leh

catogerizedkn sbg 10 stars sbb terlalu star

tok ak gmbarkan..mmg bes and really make me

moved.....


...kalolah org cam jaja 2 tol2 ade, ak kagum

gle ngan smangat dy mmburu cinta din...dan

kalo org cam din 2 tol2 ade, ak ingin sgt nk

mncontohi ksabaran dy dlm mndiik jaja dan

semangat dy mnegakkn agama ISLAM....


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AIMS

it aint silly to aim high. coz before i did it, and it worked. but dis time, by aiming high (i put a VERY high expectation) on my studies, i considered as a challenge. i know dat this aint gonna be an easy bussiness, so i must try harder. or even harder than before.

aim high, do right, is not a crime. trying to make deeds to redeem my wrong doings before. so gotta have the gut to be the right.

GOTTA BREAK THE LEG!!

ROTU

sejak ak stat mnulis kt dlm blog neh, rsenyer ak xpenah lg gne saluran neh sbg medium tok ak mlepaskan kutukan yg begitu 'third class' gaye pemikiran. tp ak rse kali neh tidak lg.
(mode ayat ak da mle brubah, ala2 english style in malay mode, phew, tryin to be more malay)

dis time, i think it would be better for me, i guess, to potray here dat the problem dat has been arguely argued by the all members ARE NOT REAL. just face it, it was only a diversion made by people to the people to destroy our KERJASAMA spirit. there's no such thing as GROUPING and CLAN (watsoeva dey called it). i think dat most of u just bewildered by da astonishment it brought.

before dat, think dis through. nobody ever nagging about da hell dat em brought DURING da training. it was just AFTER da training. yeah, some might could says dat dis aint true, but again, think dis through. it is true, is it??

and, guys. i think dat sometimes u r rite, yet didnt mean dat u r always rite. u were wrong sometimes, by considering all of ur judgements (it wasnt fair u noe)...i am really thankful cause i have such frens which can really be called frens. u tells us from wrongs to rights, yet still gives us so much time to improve. ur patient, i'd really appreciate dat, even for a very tiny one, yet u still did. but, with all dat false judgements, i still couldnt say "i forgive". it was so harsh. i mean, try to understand us much better. we COULD solve our problem or problems without ur help or pretty much i considered as 'INTERFERENCE'...

and, lads..
i just could only say; take off ur wig, pull off ur mask, stop HIDING in there. i know who u r and i noe dat u noe me.....stop be behind da bush. it isnt work at all. we knew dat we r great and meant to do such great things. remember, we stranded in a land of god- know-where, solved da mystery given by u-know-who, and soo much BS dat brought us togetha, here...and we all knew dat we r connected by heart.

so, ak amat berharap yg kte dapat same2 tawliah thn dpn. sme2 kawad kat tgh pdg kawad UUM. ak tw, ak byk mnuang, so, slalu ingtkan ak..jgn bg ak kua baris even mke ak da biru pon...kkdang ak yg ngade2 saket..sbb ape ak ckp g2, sbb ak tw yg ak bleh wat, dan korang sme pon leh wat sbb kte ssme bleh wat. satu mnde yg mnyatukan kte sumer adelah batch 19 neh. ingat, kte bkn bru knal. msk neh, da 3 thn, dan 3 thn bknla satu tempoh yg kjap. ak xkan kluar dri mnde neh dan ak xnk sspe kua pon. sume msh bleh troskan. dan ak yakin, yg KTE SUME BLEH.....

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TEMPATAN 24JAM

training tempatan 24jam 210610-290610

kali neh ak da btol2 mindset kt otak pale ak yg kteowg akn training tok jangkamse 10 jam sje. yet, it turned out dat we need to spend all our 24 hours in dat hell. mmg pd mlenyer nk mmbantah, tp apekan daye, tgk senior bley wat, mmbe2 inter yg len leh wat, junior skali pon leh wat xkan ak nk ngade2 xmo wat...so ak simpulkan kt sini yg ak wat gak...

tp, mse yg ak amk tok morale up kan diri ini skali ngan mnjalani aktviti sbg pgwai kadet kali neh agk lme. bleyh kte, ak moved by all da hell punishments dat be received by ma frens. i thought dat i was a traitor, by turning ma back on them and keep playing with ma own self

first day, 210510
woke up aint dat early, in full loreng, headed up to marching ground where we were all assemble. azie, knocked out by da tyme our new adjutance introducing himself. ifa, got stuck while we were having morning jog as well as me. as such, three of us detailed for cookhouse duty dat morning. it was, not-a-very-good-start for me though. but, i found maself relieved. he was there...nothing to be tempted about. he was just there.
in the evening, i went for the kawad. since i got nothing to worry bout.but, it turned out to be just like u-noe-wat...
during the night, the rollcall went up to a vey decent hour, till we shud pray for it to stop.

second day 220510
woke up very early, 0500 already stood up in front of the weapon berreck. just like always, PT session. i skipped a lil bit. for the kawad session, i turned out from the baris twice. da most embarassing moment of malife. i havent turned out from any of the baris even for once since i enrolled for this PALAPES. but this tyme i did. at da evening, i managed to run it quite good.

third day 230510
the most hari menuang 4 me. PT, i passed out. only for a while. kawad in the morning, just witnessed all ma frens be tortured. evening, jage senjate, but still saw them be tortured. a lil bit insaf dlm diri. so, felt like i was guilty by falsing ma sickness. so, decided to go for rollcall. but, ma fren said no to me. he said, better help all ma other sick frens for cat senjata. i just go with the wind. yet again, at nite, saw them be tortured AGAIN by the f**king YO's..owh, hell was it.

forth day 240510
2day there was no kawad. ade ceramah insurans 18sx and full with foul words. bkn xbese, tp rse cam xsswai dgr all those. really reflected the thought of people who were thrid class mind of thinking. lg saket kne dgr twice. owh, god, help me.evening stap lpskan awl. mlm ade kls ngan pegawai. blaja silibus senior. nme pon kteowg nk jd senior. blaja pertahanan.

fifth day 250510
2day, men paintball.i dun play it. tp jd anak tiri. sdih tol. xp, sbb dpt lpak kt suro tdo dri kul 11 smpai kul 2. ptg smbung lg. perghh. mmg bes

sixth day 260510
dis day, ak berkawad tol2...thanks to nina, i mengadu kt dy soo many times, but she kept ignoring me. also thanks to ifa, cause she said dat she felt da same way as i do. our hands and body blunted.but i still managed for a day. uh, forget to mention, azie got cramped, her whole body. so couldnt get up and remained laid on her bed for the whole morning. yet, another reason i wanta kawad dat day is PT was 'suspended' till da day.apart from dat, i drank red bull to keep me with da surround. at nite, also stap burn took da nite session. so no rollcall.

seventh day 270510
kawad cam saket. dri pg smpai kul 1400. bdn bengkak cam bese. pusing padang kawad 4 lap. 2perlahan jalan, 2jln laju. mmg saket. sbb mlm td, kne lari pusing ktdi 3 lap, ak kua baris, so rini ade session luahan perasaan. ak pon 2rut serta. ckp psl ak xpwas ati mse lari smlm. tp xleh nk kte byk psl ak da kua baris. nk wat camne. kokap tol diri ini.

eighth day 280510
raptai penoh. 2kali wat. ade tambon. mmg bes.

final day 290510
kawad yg penoh rse bangge. hehe. mmg bes. pas2 mkn beradab ngan timbalan komandan. tp sblom 2, pg 2 amat kelakar. CP bwk baris cam nk wat 1 lap. ps2 kne tego ngan encik rsm. wk2 2 mmg ak rse nk gelok sero. nek bas blk, dak2 laki kte mlm neh ade rollcall. adjutance utang...wahaha...tp, xabh disitu sbb lg stu penyeksaan ade mse 2nggu timb komandan. mmg cam nk mati la. lme gle 2nggu dy. tgn da lenguh. rse cam nk tdo da...adoiiii...tini dok sblah ak asek tiup2 mnde tah. pas abh kawad ak tnye dy, dy ckp nk elak hingus 2run...aduss..pas abh kawad, pulang senjate. abh cam2 j..mmg bes. stap burn bg kteowg blk. so bantai tdo ckop2 la..bsoh bju skali. ptg 2 2run markas sign kembaran. tros headed k ktho. nk siapkan dewan tok mkn mlm 2..khas tok stap amir tersyg...ok r mkn mlm 2...tp agk xpwas ati ble tgk bakso kck 2 dok skali ngan CI sme ngan stap amir..cam xptot..stap burn lak dok 1 meje ngan org2 yg xterhormat..adoii...tp xpe. mlm 2 abh ngan seronoknyer....




dak2 yg hadir kali neh nyer training....

45 j

01 ifa
02 azie
03 nina
04 bana
05 kak long
06 shiema akuyan
07 amal
08 nisa
09 nor
10 ana
11 shai
12 sha
13 tini
14 mun
15 ayu
16 mei lin
17 amna
18 suhaizie
19 din koperal
20 isma
21 hafiz
22 amin
23 krol
24 haris
25 mok
26 faiz JLP
27 mat usin
28 hakim
29 rahman
30 zaki
31 napi
32 demam
33 abu
34 talib
35 mus
36 toba
37 faiz tembok
38 giant
39 arip
40 syafiq
41 hairi
42 piee
43 ohio
44 os

di rumah

maseh mencari lgu PERGILAH AYU, FABULOUS CAT...

ssungohnyer lgu 2 amat mnghantui ak..wah wah wah...

ak rse neh sbb penangan KAMAL ADLI yg mrupakan teraju utama citer 2. skali ngan FAUZIAH GOUS. tp sbb ak neh pompuan, xkan la tarikan utama tok cite 2 adelah FAUZIAH GOUS kot. sbb ak neh bkn sorang yg amt port sgt ttg dunia artis tmpatan, so ak xbape recognize sgt FAUZIAH GOUS 2, (profusely sori tok tuan nyer badan), dan jge tok KAMAL ADLI. b4 cite 2, ak xknal pon. psl si KAMAL ADLI neh kapel ngan INTAN LADYANA pon ak xtw..hehe..secare jujurnyer, ble blk umh j ak jdi cicak kt TV tesayang ak tuh..

coretan tok ari neh,
15 1955H JUN 2010
zthmd

rumate..

rumates

hidop ak ney, bru 4 kali merasei kehidopan berumate.
background asal ak sbg seorang bdak skolah harian xbyk berubah ble ak msk k alam asrama sbb idop ak kt umah pon da cam asrama. mak ayah ngan adek ak bertindak sbg rumates ak dan peraturan yg ayah ak kuatkuasakan kt umah seumpama rules2 yg ckgu bsr ltak kt skolah...so xrase kekok ble msk asrama.huhu

talkin bout da rules dat ma father has approved and we as a family practiced, maybe it's kinda sound like a freakin family and maybe some thinks dat dis is kinda freakin and weirdo family, but i admit those rules, which we still practice are kinda cool..

okeh, back to original track..
asrama..
ak stat msk asrama mse f4, dimana ak mmpunyai rumate. 3 org semuanya;BELLA SYG, NADIA COMEL dan MAKCK INAZ...
mngkin sbb pasan matang dan bley dayung sampan sendiri, ak terlalu terbawa2 diri dan konon da mara tp hanyut sebenarnye...
konflik yg bodo terjadi antara kami..ak cam bdk2, konon2 merajuk, mmbawa hati dan diri yg duka serta lara k blek klsmate ak yg pd mse 2 amat bek ngan ak...tp, mngkin sbb Allah 2 nk tunjuk yg mkne rumate 2 bkn skadar org yg tinggal 1 blek sje ngan ko, so ak tersedar dri lamunan serta mmpi yg konon2 pasan ak btol selama neyh...truth came up, and i was back to original path of motion...2 pon terima ksh sgt2 kt ckgu firdaus, pak kaun kt mktb ak yg byk mnolong ak dri segi bg motivasi kt dri ak yg mndorong ak bertindak spt seorang manusia...

nek f5, rumate 1 neyh, INAZ 2ka blek plak...rse sdih timbul sbb kteowang da mkn rapat...tp ngan kemasukan SARAH SABIDI neyh plak, wat ak rse cam nk pecah perut j sentiase...sikap keslumberan dy yg begitu bersahaje mmbuat chemistry kteowg, intermolecular bond yg terhasil mkn kuwat..byk memori la mse 2...mnde yg plg ak ingt sgt mse burpdai ak yg k 17...dyowng smbut tol2 cam best...tp ak la yg kne trok...dpt telur 2 bijik ngan loker ak kne kosongkan...abh spray graffiti ak kne amk...enset ak pon slamat..tp tw plak tingglkan brg2 inner ak...slamat...dan pg yg xbley lpe gak adelah mse ade owg pecah msk mktb ak ikot pagar blakang yg kebetulannya kt blakang blek ak..harem...

ak meninggalkan 2007 and msk 2008 dgn bgetu cpt smpai. ak msk k alm u cam self bdak2 dloo...da la dpt blek single, mmg bohsan mse 2...cam harem tol2...slamat blek sblah ak dak mktb lme ak gak..WANIE...tp citer psl rumate pd zmn asasi ak 2 xlme...sbb 1 sem j ak kt asasi...
ble msk fes year, ak jd rumate ngan FARAHIN...wat julung2 kalinyer ak ade rumate tok blek berdua...kre xbley r cam dloo, mlm2 ngade2 pndah kt katil nadia, kalo xbes g kt bella ps2 gatal2 g kt ktl sarah...hahha..
rumate ngan farahin wat ak rse kkdang cam ak sorang yg matang dan kkdang sbg sorang yg bdak2...ini adelah sbb kami mmpunyai perangai yg lebyh kwang sme...kple mmg bru fresh kua dri skolah...tp da lme tinggal ngan dy, bru pasan yg dy ney agk matang kalo kompare ngan perangai dy..mmg cam childish..tp xla slalu sgt..pd ak dy appeared kt lua cam a lil kid tp inself dy amat matang dan ak agk kagum....

zaman kteowg jd umate xlme sgt,...ps ak msk palapes, ak pndah kolej. msk kolej palapes. kt kolej neh, ak stu blek ngan HIDAYAH..nme ak ngan dy dkat2 sme, nme ak IZZATI HIDAYAH, nme dy HIDAYAH...nombo aska ak 7524295, dy plak 7524296...ps2 kaler kulit ak ngan dy da lbeh kwang sme, dy pon specky (tp power lg tinggi dri ak), so kkdang ade org konpius ngan kteowg...tp kkonpiusan 2 xlme sbb ak ngan dy posess personality yg agk berbeza...mmg kalo kt lua nmpak ak ngan dy lbeh kwang sme..2 2 agk tomboy serta boyish, tp sbnaryer ak agk girlish sket kompare ngan dy..dy terer bwk pape vehicles..agk brani kalo kompare ngan ak, dan agk matang kalo kompare ngan ak (sbb beza umo kot, dy lhir 89)..tp ble dok ngan dy stu mslah j yg ak agk xbpe thn..dy neh asal ade cuti jeh msti lesap..mntang2 umah dkt..so 2 yg wat ak rse kkdang cam dok dlm blek yg double..(ade rumate tp cam xd)...tp prasaan 2 ak dpt bezakan ble ak dok blek sorang2 mse training r2..dy xdtg kali neh sbb ade LI, so ak dok sorang2...abh katil dy ak bantai..2 yg beza..mse 2 brg dy cam brg ak, tp kalo mse dy ade, brg dy, ttp cam brg dy...xleh men2 bantai...dan lgi stu TP, ak rse amat bersyukur ble dok ngan dy sbb ble dok ngan dy, ak dpt rse dri ak da smakin dkt ngan pencipta.dan reason 2 amt la ak sokong inside out....


next sem neh ak dpt blek len plak...tp rumate maseh sme...so ak arap ak dpt kekalkan ape yg ak da ade....(except for ma lost wimax)

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nmpaknyer da msk mse bru tok ak troskan cuti eh ngan bemcm2 aktvti yg ak mls nk senaraikan dlm blog ak yg da lme xsentuh neh...

r2, bkk blog2 mmbe ak, cam2 gak dywog ltk..pnoh ngan gambo, lagu la, lirik2 r...cam2 lg..
ak plak da abh akai nk ltak pe...sbb ak byk mnumpukan (ayt bku) nk abhkan short story yg ak 2lis kt blog lg 1 tuh..

so, in da meantime, i like to write and write...but couldnt find much effort and restless for me to write...

newest post rite after pas cuti

pejam celik, pejam celik, pastu pejam jap xcelik2 (tdo nmenyer neh), ak da sebulan meninggalkan alam semester 2 thn 2 ak kt utm neh..rse cam kjap, tp xla kjap kalo refer kalender...
ak tlah abhkan 2 minggu pertama ak kt umh ngan mmbesarkan kpla otak (mnambah jmlah iklan2 bru kt tv dlm ingatan), mmbesarkan bakat terpendam (ak dok nyanyi sero kt umh, almaklumlah xd org nk jugde), dan secare xlangsung mmbesarkan bdn ak (even no one noticed bout it, highly unnoticeable)...

pastu 3 minggu ney ak trlh terstranded kt utm blk, nk mncari pngalaman bru tok latihan palapes yg bkal mnjelme neh..ak bleh rse bhg latihan yg bakalnyer bakal mnjadi the HELLEST latihan of da year...kedengaran cite2 sosek2 minah2 neh yg dis tyme byk tuan2 puan2 yg bkl melapor tok mncurahkan ilmu serta setia bakti kpd negare mnerusi kami atw dlm kte lenyer, BG KEBAJIKAN PADA KAMI.

hard 2 believe in, jus like rihanna said, sooo hard...and yet, it would be hard...
so kne tabahkan ati la....


slain training yg xpenah putus, selain sem lepas yg terputus 1 sem, ak nk story moory kt korang pasal ak nyer newest experience recently.

mmbe skuad ak tlh mnganjurkan khdmat masyarakt k skolah lme dy...kteowg g 2 skool, tp ak hnyer participated tok 1 skol j...

mmg xdpt dinafikan, ak mmg agk excited tok join, maklumlah for da first timer cam ak, sronok r nk tgk adek2, nk dpt adek2 bru serta nk try rse prasaan akak2 ngan abg2 fasi yg penah jd fasi ak dloo..ak blk jb lebh awal dan volunteer tok tolong2 dlm rewang2 dyowg...tp, ak xdpt ikot gak yg fes psl ak kne mlaksanekan tnggungjwb yg lagi bsr tok adek ak sorang yg tersayang tuh, ak kne anto dy g pontian...msk mtrix...

jd pas da anta dy, ak munculkan diri ak tok skolah yg kedua ney. dis tyme, xbyk sgt mnde yg dyowg wat sbb dyowng gne pakai smula modul2 yg dyowg tlh apply kt fes skol 2...

tp dis tyme, psl ak involved, kne r pgg bdk..partner fasi dyowg shuffle...dan bermulela kisah ketidakikhlasan ak msk program ney...

niat ak yg asalnye btol dan ikhlas sbb nk tlg da brubah..mood ak pon dri slightly changed jd highly changed...psl dak partner ak 2, mls la ak nk mntion kt sini, tp rmai tw kot....ak xphm npe org len ckp dy bes r, sronok r, pramah r dan byk lg positive feedback yg dy dpt, sbb pd ak, those were all wrong!!
i felt like a fool during entire kem...obnoxious gle rse ngan dak 2...tp nk wat camne, try gak luruskan niat ak 2 blk..terpakse pkai topeng buatan khas yg sme ukiran cam corak mke ak, terpakse gak berdepan ngan sekeliiling ngan ati yg xbpe ikhlas tuh...

tp, ak berjaye jd dri ak ngan adek2 fasi ak...ak jujur ngan dyowg ngan xtipu dyowg...cme ak rse cam xbpe bersedia r ble sorang2 da stat anggap ak adalah org yg bkn ak possess...ssh tuh...tp ak gagahkan gak...

sorang2 dk yg ak knal, satu2 pngalaman bru ak temui...alhamdulillah, mnde neh secare xlangsung mndewasakan ak dri dlm...dan ak sedar, ape yg ak tgk kt dyowg tuh adelah dri ak yg dloo...ati ak amat2 gle2 tersentuh ngan adek2 fasi ak yg lelaki neh...dyowg showed ma own reflection when i was at their age. ape yg mmbezakan ak ngan dyowg adelah da way dyowng carry dri dyowg...sbb dyowg msh mude, maybe dyowg xnmpak ngan jelas lg idop neh camne...dan sedihnyer, ak sbg akak pembimbing sementare dyowg xmmpu nk bwk dyowg tgk idop yg sbenar ney camne...FAILED~

dan ak kagum tgk kt semangat sorang dak ppuan dlm grup ak neh, semangat dy cam air, sntiase mngalir ngan xpernah putus...family probs dy berjaye put aside dloo sbb nk 4kus kt stady dan ape yg mmpu ak ckp, dan harap adelah dy BERJAYE NGAN CITE2 DY~!!!

ADEK2 fasi ak yg laki 2 plak ak rse cam nk tmpeleng lak kdg2, tp anak org tuh...tp kn, ak mmg inspired gle2 ngan smangat dyowg sorang2 mse idopkan api...ak xtry tlg lngsung...pnat tgk j la...ak ingat ade la yg nk give up, tp dyowg HEBAT!! sbb xd sorang pon yg ckp nk give up...dri gaye dyowg cam mls nk wat, mls nk amk port tp, dyowg still keep trying nk idopkan...dan ak AMATLAH bangge ngan dyowg satu2....

tok adek2 fasi akak, akak nk wish kt korang sume: GUD LUCK SPM2011!!!!
ingt, kne ade MATLAMAT IDOP, CEMERLANG KT DUNIA NGAN GEMILANG KT AKHIRAT SNE....akak sntiase mndoakan korang sume....

~BABA~MALE~APEK~LAN~AIN~SHASHA~JANNAH~HUSNA~LIZA~
(ak 2lis nickname psl ak da lpe nme tol dyowg, sooorieee)

PANDAI BERCAKAP VS BANYAK ILMU

beza yg utama antara org yg pndai berkata2 tp xd ilmu ngan org xpndai bekate2 tp ade ilmu ialah; KALO KT PERTANDINGAN SYARAHAN ATW PAPE K, yg pndai berkate2 xberilmu ney dpt mnambat serta mnawan ati para pndengar, manakala, yg xpndai berkate2 sgt tp byk ilmu ney plak dpt mnambat ati pengadil yg arif 2....

reason npe ak came up ngan mnde ney sbb ak penah stuck in dat situation...

penat berceloteh smpai penonton tergelak terbahak2, tp last2 mmbe ak yg jnis pndiam ney plak yg dpt menteri terbaek...

ah sudahhh....

dan kesimpulannyer...
kalo nk jd pnsyarah biarlah come in a whole package...huhu

life.and.death.oboe

it is kinda freak when u born to be good yet u unapprove it...
pnye la xdpt hidayah golongan yg cam gitu dan hanye 1 doa ak kt Allah, ak mntk agar dijauhkan sume itu....
senario skang, if u dress like a nun, u r so-called alim...xkire r pape agame pon...tp skang ak sbg muslim, hnye nk mmfokuskan kpd agama yg ak junjung slame neyh, iaitu ISLAM....
pd ak xslh kalo berpakaian cam seorang muslim dan menutup aurat thp kls A...ak mse blaja kt mktb dloo pon wat cam2, tp sbb ikot semase, ak da tinggal stokin, stat pkai skinney, pkai 2dong nmpak rmbut dan cam2 lg..ak wat cam2 psl rse fashion criminal kalo xikot trend semase....
tp jauh kt lubuk ati ak, ak terase nk berubah...nk jd bek sket..atw byk sket...atw lg byk..sbb ak nmpak kebenaran....tp ak tros idop dlm ignorance sbb ak bkn org yg outspoken...

frankly speakin...
i grew mature..inside out..i started to learn to extinguish between the RIGHT and the WRONG..
i dun wan to repeat da same common mistake over and over again...i'd be given da lite dat suppose to shine the path of malife..yet i refuse too because i was berkiblatkan dgn org yg slh..by taking dis kinda people as ma axis of life, i bloomed in da dark, felt da ignorant, even i was in da true path...

Alhamdulillah...
i started to realize..
livin a life is not an easy bussiness
yet it hard and could be da hardest
even da dead thought dat die was rather an easy compare to life,
so, i haf to stop playin around...
need to be like ma old-me
live dis world with a specific path,
most essential,
treasure wat has Allah had give to us
and
be proud
and livin in it...
walk dis life with all the guts, be afraid of da sins, find all da deeds, live with it in this prison of world...

remember
gotta live like we dying..

life and death oboe
xoxo
zthmd

CHANGED

bear in mind, I'VE CHANGED..
AND 4 a gud reason i loved dis changed. i dun give any damn-thing if someone do worry bout ma changed, and i wont listen to anyone unless me speak in maself...

MEDLEY

lady gaga sung dis song..i tot dat it was only a song and stand alone as a song, but then i found out dat i do CAUGHT IN A BAD ROMANCE..
tried to escape it, yet a narrow escape dat i would underthru..uhhh...

how was i got stuck? soo stack up...

but, JUSTIN BIEBER said dat it was/is only ONE TIME,...
so i got nothin to worry bout..as long as it makes me happie and i live on ma own life, without messin wif other....

according to KEYSHIA COLE, i gotta LET IT GO, if i does mess up wif me...gotta get ma feet on and continue livin...too gud to be true...aha...

continue livin, ma new tagline...gettin new life and new me...soo moved on...gotta RUN DA SHOW..ma own show...KAT DELUNA said to me...uh..soulful..

xoxo
new medley
xoxo
zthmd

i think i shud get back on track...start again to write, even i dun haf soo much to write, but i would write wateva dat would come across ma mind...

i started to realize dat ma english gettin suck...lack of reading, insufficient in conversation and most of all, I PRACTICED, NOUGHT!!...

maybe da enviroment, or da surrounds, or else da atmosphere...arghh...wat am i mumbling...
but maybe, da 100% of certainty in dis problem is me...i built a wall in me..me not to learn...i fenced it over and never let maself gettin into, and alas, im stuck in ma own wicked world....trying to get a way out...but then, still stuck cuz i had demolish da key...

yet, i found da key...and now, i finally out and i would start to write AGAIN...

owhh, it's gud to be back ( beyonce's husband tagline)

xoxo zthmd 0703100235