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u noe, 2day i can assumed as one of ma shitty day..maybe it was ma fault because i didnt enjoy it but fuck it..y shud i enjoy it? da reason on y i called 2day as ma bad day is everyone dat I NEED were not around.....even when i give her a call, she didnt even answer her phone...(i bet dat she has something more important to do rather than hearing ma problems)...owh...i hate it...


okeyh, 4 some kind of some-fuckin-reasons, i dun wanna talk much bout 2day...
yesterday, i had ma dynamics test..believe me, i can do it and i understand on wat am i doing...but da problem is i did wrong 4 da last question...suppose da work done by da force was negative (-) because of da displacement did by da force applied is opposite. but, i miscalculated it and i was happen to be mis-watch ( does dis word exist? ) it, thus leading me to answer dat question wrongly. pathetic me..plus, at dat tyme, i was pretty confident wif ma answers..darhh..again, poor me....who did it? i did it...

then, last nite after da test, we ( da committee of aero club ) had a meeting..shud i called it important?yeah it was IMPORTANT...but, only a few members did come and da rest were kinda busy wif their studies...such a faggot, id reckon...i do agree dat our main bussiness by entering dis university is study...but, if u held a THING on ur shoulder which is called RESPONSIBILITY, please be responsible 2 it...y on earth shud u volunteering urself by putting a weight, such a weight, and carrying it but do nothing bout it?..be responsible to it..u gotta a job 2 do..so please do....darhhh...i was kinda pissed off yesterday...i saw arin and syaf were struggling wif their studies... i saw them, sacrificing their nite on material science...however, they went to da meeting too....they do da job, did their job quite well...but, i've never heard them nagging at me bout their misery by doing dis whole aero thing...and 4 da boys, maybe krol and faisal deserved da 'future-credits'...i saw them, also, did their job pretty well....but da rest, i wont comment in dis blog...jus let bygone be bygone....



4 some kind of unknown reasons, i realize dat recently i cannot hold ma tears 4 too long...i do remember once, dat i made a promise 2 maself dat i wont cry...i will never cry, no matter how hard da circumtances dat i will face...however, i had oppose ma promise ( i shud make a vow next tyme )...yet i cried too much...wat had happened to me?..can someone give a solid answer according 2 ma problem? it's sorta hard 4 me to not to cry....when i said dat i wont cry, then suddenly da tears just rundown on ma face and guess wat 'IM CRYING'....da reasons are still yet to be found and im kinda hate it because i didnt noe y i cried....as like arin said, maybe theres something, beneath dis skin, lies a problem which i noe wat it was, but i refuse to admit it as da reason dat has making me cry...then, END OF DA STORY....

write soon....

p/s ;lyfe is getting much harder when u reach 19? who knew...HIM...